I gathered from Philemon’s words that I must remain true to love to cancel out the commingling that arises through unlived love.
I understood that the commingling is a bondage that takes the place of voluntary devotion. Scattering or dismembering arises, as Philemon had taught me, from voluntary devotion.
It cancels out the commingling.
Through voluntary devotion I removed binding ties.
Therefore I had to remain true to love, and, devoted to it voluntarily, I suffer the dismembering and thus attain bonding with the great mother, that is, the stellar nature, liberation from bondage to men and things.
If I am bound to men and things, I can neither go on with my life to its destination nor can I arrive at my very own and deepest nature.
Nor can death begin in me as a new life, since I can only fear death.
I must therefore remain true to love since how else can I arrive at the scattering and dissolution of bondage?
How else could I experience death other than through remaining true to love and willingly accepting the pain and all the suffering?
As long as I do not voluntarily devote myself to the dismembering, a part of my self secretly remains with men and things and binds me to them; and thus I must, whether I want to or not, be a part of them, mixed in with them and bound to them.
Only fidelity to love and voluntary devotion to love enable this binding and mixing to be dissolved and lead back to me that part of my self that secretly lay with men and things.
Only thus does the light of the star grow, only thus do I arrive at my stellar nature, at my truest and innermost self that simply and singly is.
It is difficult to remain true to love since love stands above all sins. He who wants to remain true to love must also overcome sin.
Nothing occurs more readily than failing to recognize that one is committing a sin.
Overcoming sin for the sake of remaining true to love is difficult, so difficult that my feet hesitated to advance. ~Carl Jung, Red Book, Page 356.
